Sometimes it's so hard for me to just be.
It's like I've got this war going on inside of my head, a series of debates.
It happens when something makes me sad or angry, and the internal conversation typically sounds like this: "Oh, that's not right...I shouldn't have thought that!" Or, "Don't be so judgemental of him/her."
I get so tired sometimes because I don't want to figure everything out...and yet...I feel like I have this need to do that. And then there are situations in life, encounters with friends or family--or personal issues that I deal with daily--that I haven't got any power over. But I'm still left with these feelings of helplessness or anger or judgement -- a sense that something is wrong, like a murky cloud that hugs the earth...obstructing my view.
I don't like feeling this way.
I'm throwing my hands up. I surrender.
- May I have compassion for my feelings.
- May I feel God's spirit telling me that it's okay.
- May I just be.
- May everybody, everywhere know that it's okay to just be.